YOUR DECISIONS

While pursuing secondary education through science stream, i realised that i do not have much interest in learning science, mathematics, social science etc. Rather, i was interested in music. I was always beating benches in classroom, bed in dormitories and myself while i did not have anything near me. Although, my grasping power was good enough to score good marks in any of the subjects which were taught in our class and i even topped my class in Physics as i understood physics more than any other subjects, but still i could not see my future in these subjects.

      

So, after passing out from school, i did a little research of music schools which were offering bachelors and masters degree in music learning and most importantly near my hometown. So, i approached my father and told him the matter. He immediately refused saying that these things do not suit our family and traditions, our society does not accept this thing, music does not have much scope for you, music is for small people and not for you. He told me many more things to avoid sending me to music school for pursuing bachelors in music. 

However, i was consistently trying to convince my family, and they were also consistently refusing. But, when i said that i will take admission by any means and go on my own with out your help and money, they accepted the proposal, but said that this is not the way of doing things and if you do like that we can never be happy with your passion. This thing hurt me very much, i started crying and overthinking a lot even after they allowed me to take admission. 

      

So, what i did here is that i had a pity on my parents thinking, emotionally, that they will not be happy with the passion I will follow and how I be happy if they are not happy. Moreover, I also thought of the society and their opinions about pursuing music as a passion and degree which demoralised me and stopped me pursuing which could be the best thing that would have ever happened to me. This overthinking about the society and having pity on family are two things that became the biggest hurdle and wall for me to climb, which I even could not. 

     

I took admission for pursuing bachelor of science through Physics stream and completed with good score, but again had a feeling of doing something in music from somewhere. However, I needed to have a job to fulfil family’s basic requirements and so I did. After coming so far I still wanted to learn music, but what has changed until now is that i have a specific interest now instead of a general one. I wanted to learn specifically drums. 

This time I had money and time, and no one to stop me. I have gained enough experience and a maturity level which powered me to avoid society and made me capable of doing things on my own. 

       

And, so I did. I bought one and now I am following my passion with full potential and interest which I could do a lot earlier if I would not have that misunderstanding about pity and overthinking about society. 

So, your decisions in your life should be taken very carefully by thinking of long term. Because, sometimes you take wrong decisions, like i did, by considering short term problems, which last until you get success. After that there are no reactions from the society and no objections from your family So just make yourself able to see things for long term.  

One right decision can take you to limitless heights.